My WorLd

the begining and the end

2009-12-06T23:39:00.002+08:00

Been and back from Bintan. i love the beach, the huge waves, the fine soft sand.... one can never see such a beach in spore. A resort which i wouldn mind going back again.

3 months of torture will soon begin. keeping my fingers cross my preceptor, the ward sister and staff are nice. the 2 weeks break is simply too short, ive only just started to have the holiday mood but i've got to start work tmr alr.. i'm so not ready for it! argh!!!!

Misses the beach. Butterflies in stomach.

Seoul, Korea [ 5sept - 15sept 09]

2009-09-18T23:29:00.006+08:00

A 6 hours night flight to Incheon Airport which my mom and myself barely slept. The temperature ranged from 20 to 30 degree clesius. Despite the bright sun shinning like in spore, it feels cool, as though we are in a shopping centre in spore. Imagine when its in the night and early morning... Lovely! Till now, i'm still having difficulty adapting back to spore's tempt!

Homestay
Sarah and Feraldine (din) were in Seoul earlier so as to experience homestay. They were so comfortable with the environment that they requested that we homestay with their host sister's house, which we did. It was definitely a great experience.

My host, Dr. Andy/WooYoung is a director of Hansei University and his wife works at the hospital. Thankfully our host is able to speak english as for his wife, it was hand signals and guessing. Their one and only 12yr old son is currently studying in the states, which would probably be a till he graduates from University, approx 10yrs? Though our host was hardly at home (and at that point of time they has some family issues), they treated us like part of their family. They had even bought an extra bed, hairdryer, toiletry, food..... Most importantly, they are extremely patient!

Our other half-host was very motherly who had prepared breakfast for everyone. Every morning at 8.20am (Spore time: 7.20am) my mom and myself would take a one min walk over to her house for breakfast!맛있다! (delicious) She has 3 boys. Namely Lee Kyuho (10yrs), Lee Minho(9yrs) and Lee Eunho(7yrs). With din and sarah staying there, it feels like she just had 2 extra kids! 시끄러운( noisy and loud). Haha.. Being with this family gives a very homey feeling.

Shopping
Most of the days we spent shopping! We would set off at 11am and be back at 9plus with only shopping at only a single street! Apgujeong Dong has the coolest clothes and the lastest fashion in korea BUT its extremely 비싼 (expensive) shopping there. Its where celebrities will shop at and celebrities hidden in huge black tinted window vans.

Dongdaemun sells extremely cheap clothes but definitely worth buying unlike spore cheap clothes and accessories! I think there are 3 buildings but one of it is for those tour groups to bring the tourist to so naturally it would be more expensive.

Myeong Dong! Probably my most favourite street to shop at! Everything you want or need can be found there. From clothes to accessories to comestics to facial products to shoes... Facial mask are given out for free which are sold like $10 per piece in spore!!!

Sinchon which have a few Universities located around that area, attracts students to shop around that area. Not exactly as big as the other markets though. Close by Sinchon is Hondae which is also another shopping area! Yes, Shopping!

Yeoju is really far from where we stayed. I think it is not within Seoul? Anyway we took abt 3 hrs to reach our destination? Anyway, Yeoju sells all the branded and sports stuff at a MUCH cheaper rate. Mind you, its all original! xD

Coex is one expensive place to shop at. Its like a huge orchard road only that its in one building. Lotte World is also a huge shopping centre with an internal and external amusement park inside. Its similar to Genting actually. GS mart and Lotte Mart are places where we bought our food, chopsticks and what ever we had brought bach apart from clothes and accessories. xD

Sightseeing
Bongeunsa, a chinese temple surrounded by many trees. It feels like it is in a tiny forest where across the road are classy and upgraded buildings. There is a waterfountain where water can be drank from. The water is really cool and refreshing!

We went to Gyeongbokgung palace and manage to catch them changing shift. It was pretty cool! xD

We went to N Tower using the route by foot. (the other is by cable car which had seemed nicer) The view was great and it was cold! Many couples can be seen there. There is a railining where couples would buy and hang their couple locks in the railing. It was pretty much filled up.

Olympic Park! My favourite sightseeing place. It took us abt 3hrs to complete the whole park. It has rained just as we reached the park and my, extremely COLD. Even with my thick pullover i was still feeling cold! And my mom broke my umbrella, actually the wind did. hahaa. Anyway, its really beautiful there. There are flower plantations, Squirrel forest and containers for people to pick up the nuts and put then in there for squirrels to eat!

Relax
We went to 찜질방(Jjimjilbang). It is korean bathhouse that is open 24hrs. A place where koreans will go there to relax. The showering area is separated into males and females and we will shower and scrub ourselves till we are red lobsters to remove the dead skin on our body. It is an open area while showering so yup, you will be all exposed! After scrubbing and changing into their clothes, we will head to the hot room tempt ranging from 60 plus to 90 plus celsius and ltr to the ice room with a 0 celsius and just keep switching. They have a room thats filled with oxygen. At the 찜질방, they provide food, gym, mats for sleeping and everything that you need. Its definitely an experience there.

Post Korea Syndrome
Korea is a place where i wouldn't mind going back again for a holiday again. Its really safe there. I love it there!
I miss the food.
I miss the weather.
I miss my dongsengs.

*Pic will be up in my FB.*

2pm Park Jaebeom, Suju Kangin, Seoul

Current thoughts

2009-08-14T22:51:00.001+08:00

KOREA

Officially last day of lessons

Exams

Camp

Damn you politics

Jerangkang Waterfall!

2009-06-20T21:38:00.003+08:00

Okay, my first and hopefully not my last expedition. It was simply memorable. Keeping my fingers crossed that i have time to get my canoe first star cert and go for the water expedition. xD

Day 1
Went to sch to learn how to pitch tents, the proper way of doing BOing and PUing by creating cat holes (hopefully i rmb correctly), repacking and waterproofing our bags. Later we had dinner at mac and discussion for talent night while waiting for the bus to come to send us over to msia. And sam had to choose a horror movie on the bus to watch which i tried to sleep through.. hahaa

Day 2
Cooked our breakfast outside the mosque and had a 45min ride in the lorry up to close our camp site which we ltr trekked up. After reaching our camp site we went trekking through the forest and trekked down by the water. Did a few jumps into the water from low cliffs, had lunch beside the waterfall. totally shiok!

Day 3
Woke up to have a dip ourselves into the waterfall at 7am. It was super duper cold and everyone was shaking, literally.hahaa Later we made salad and andy made 'potato chips' using our potato skin.. nice and fattening.. xD everyone was stealing our chips! haha Later we played washing machine and was thrown into the water. Nice... We were given time to enjoy the scenary and let our thoughts flow..

The whole day was pretty slack which felt good. I played everything there which includes the abseiling, jacuzzi, more jumping off a 'cliff', sliding down a 'rapid' and sliding down the waterfall which was so damn cool. xD

Later in the night we had a cooking competition and our talent show. it was very entertaining. xD

We had to do century and making sure everything and one was safe. And we had barley for supper. xD

It has rained through that night but it wasnt too heavy thankfully.

Day 4
Once again we had our crazy morning dip in the cold waterfall after packing up all our stuff and combed the area clean. And then we were back to spore. Back in sch, we had to unpack the logistics and wash everything up which means getting wet again. cold~ hahaa

Then cabbed home with atiqah. xD

Back there i felt totally relaxed, stress and worry free! it felt so so good. Really..

I would say its a very well organised expedition which the standard had surprised me in fact. A tiny part of me regrets for not joining ADC back at yr 1. I'll tell my juniors to go for their expeditions and future presidents to let the club know that its worth going!

Anyway my pics are all in facebook so u can just make your way there! xD

1 week more of hols before it becomes super busy with proj, fyp, test plus aikido stuff! so thankful for the expedition. *grins*

she misses everything there and loves it...

Her wants..

2009-05-16T14:13:00.003+08:00

The weather is extremely hot till she is having a headache.. It has been further made worse after trying to read up a journal article for FYP. She feels that she function better in the night so she would most prolly leave it till then. But then again, she has got to wake up early tomorrow for training. She's pretty tired of training as it is taking up too much of her time and energy. She wants to do it at her own time and pace.

She wants to catch the movie x-men but everyone around her has already caught the movie. Plus she is too busy to do so too..

There is a new handphone that looks super nice and she is eyeing on it. Samsung ultra touch... She's contemplating if she should get a new bag pack..

Many thoughts but blank.

2009-05-02T13:59:00.004+08:00

Was pretty surprised with the number of freshies whom had turned for on wed for the orientation. Now i'm just waiting for the number of people who will be joining and would eventually stay on.. I'm definitely glad that club crawl has finally ended.

I can't really make out if yr 3's work load is madness or my cca. But i definitely do know that i'm going crazy. lol

She needs her sleep but everyone is lying on her bed which is irritating her as she wants to sleep now.

swine flu

Points

2009-04-27T23:44:00.002+08:00

Today it shall be in points...

Aching leg muscles and fingers. Probably due to partnering Peter.
Training has been a torture lately.
4th and 5th training
Expecting 20 to 30 freshies
A cockroach just ran over my leg. OMG!
Projects
Swine flu
Wavered
Haggard
Whinnie the Pooh

1st week

2009-04-24T22:43:00.004+08:00

I'm thankful that club crawl is finally over! In all i've got 70 plus ppl who have signed up, well lets see how's the outcome this coming wed then..

Was pretty mad at damien due to his lack of seriousness and level of immaturity despite the fact that he is nearly 10yrs older than me. He may get me into extremely serious trouble. I can't help but have this thought that now he is going to join kickboxing, hopefully he might loose the interest in aikido and off he goes.. Scolding him isn't right but neither talking to him works things out.

This sem modules seems pretty crappy and boring. Don't exactly feel like i'm absorbing new infomation. Ms Susan's way of teaching wasn't what i had expected like how she was in the wards.. thankfully (:

wavered; tired

In scrubs!

The madness

2009-04-21T22:52:00.002+08:00

Sch has once again start. The madness has once again begun or actually it already had before hols ended due to club crawl.

Its gonna be an extremely pack sem as the whole of sem 2 i'll be out on attachment.

Now i just want club crawl to end, have my new juniors settles which is going to involve alot energy and time, probably if possibe design a shirt for the club and finally step down. Though i forsee stepping down will not be the end of everything, instead it has only just begun.

Finally my mom is going to do a full body check up but for now she has no intentions of heading to Mount E ENT dr to see what's exactly wrong with her. Sheesh.. old ppl with old thinking...

The sick was looking after the sick. Tired.

2009-04-19T19:06:00.002+08:00

I was in the lift with my neighbor this morning. It has been a few months since i last saw him out of his house or rather he hardly every is.

According to my mom he had just married last year. I remembered at that time, his muscules were pretty much define and he looked healthy. But just this morning when i saw him, i was quite surprised. He had lost so much weight that his clavical and cheek bones are sunken and his temporal muscles are no longer very well defined.

It was only a matter of a few months before he had lost so much weight. I couldn't really recogonise him.

You will never know when you will be down with an illness and how much of your life it can suck out from you...

I was perpetually dumb today. I brought 2 gi tops rather than a top and a bottom hence ended up without training today. Later in the day i went out without my wallet.

I can't wait for club crawl to be over and the new juniors to settle in.

Tired but happy. (:

2009-04-16T15:58:00.003+08:00

School's gonna start next week and i'm not really looking forward to the starting of a new sem as it means graduation is nearing. Also my new timetable is pretty much pack with only nearly 1 hr breaks each day hence lesser time to do our projects further more with aiki trainings and i'll be reaching home late. I'll definitely be lacking of sleep again. But i definitely wanna meet up with my friends n school. XD

Its going to begin as a busy year or actually it already had.

Should i go back to school tmr to help out as mentor? lol

Confidence; honeydew soya

Pictures!!!

2009-04-11T00:54:00.004+08:00

As promised, pictures of my recent events in life. XD

Finally had the chance to catch up with Big Guy. XD

And yes, my recent bday.

Of cause my family tgt with Alex.

We were are Sakura.

As usual, nicky's crap. Haven gotten the pic for the day

yet so guess u will have to make do with this for now. XD

Finally met up with Fiona!!!

Met up with my darlings to celebrate a very belated bday. XD

Ah.. My 大姐 XD

Lili, Zhen Lao Shi, Kj

And yes, madnes, i was there too! LOL

Met Up with SH and Ah Ying to celebrate my belated bday. Was pretty surprised that i had received so many presents from them! Thanks LOADS XD. I simply enjoyed myself today!

Went to 老师's 老三, adam, 21st bday party today. In actual fact i dont know the bday boy but since zheng lao shi invited me.. heh.. anyway we were sch mates, seen each other in sec sch before so yups, we do know each other to a certain extend. XD Qin Jie and Joseph were at the party too. well they are still pretty much the same.

Mr Tan still doesnt know my actual name yet! He first known me as KJ friend to KJ Gan Mei to Xiao Mei and now Rong Zhu Er ( some HK singer). And he was introducing me to everyone at the bday party as Rong Zhu Er which at the many points of times i wanted to dig a hole and hid. LOL.

Ok, something which i should acknowledge, I'm the first to sit on KJ's lap. HAHA, simply cause the car had 6 passengers and a dog. Wah and chen bang jun (wonder if i got the name correct, lol) send me home leh.. hahaha..what ever.

Pardon me that some of the nicest pics are not uploaded as they are not with me. heh..

Today layho is satisfied, happy and surprised. XDXDXD

Busy

2009-04-09T01:11:00.002+08:00

Been pretty much rather busy during the whole hols. Intially it was art and now its with the club crawl. Currently still considering whether to mentor the new batch of yr1's that will be coming in soon and also night cycling just before sch reopens. lol.

I'm starting to wonder if it was the right choice of trusting him. Anyway alot has been happening.. haha. in fact probably too much till the extend that my body cant decide whether to fall sick anot. have been having periodic low grade fever for the past few days actually. -.-

well i guess i should be posting up some pics soon if i have the time and energy to do so. XD

XD

2009-03-26T13:12:00.003+08:00

And so my gutt feeling might be right as i'm the not only one feeling that way.
Think i might have sprained my back ytd. crap.
One of those rare trainings that have been good but then again it has become more frequent which is making me feel a little crappy.

Tioman trip cancelled! ARGH!!! so much for a hideout. -.-

Off i go painting again tonight. XD

Noticed.

29March 2009!!! XDXDXDXD

无奈

2009-03-24T00:19:00.003+08:00

I wonder how they had found out
Its makes me pissed
I feel kinda bad, i must remember not to in the future
对于这正件事, 有一种很无奈的感觉
但是我觉得我做得不够，还没全力以赴
可能是因为之前所发生的事吧
还是大家太看得起我了
话还是别多说，some things are better left unsaid.

I'm starting to get the feeling that this whole hols is gonna be like crap. i so damn want that fricking hols to tioman. XD

Well on the brighter side, i got teased by the np ppl. all i need to be and did was to act dumb. lol XD

Current song: 寂寞暴走 by Fahrenheit

空虚

2009-03-08T22:19:00.006+08:00

I realised that its no longer the same as how it used to be anymore. I no longer find the relatedness or may be i actually didn't in the first place but a forced..? Its kinda weird.. Maybe due to my tiredness which caused me to think in such a manner. But i can help but think its true.. its something which i find much difficulty in doing actually.

不知道为什么最近有一点空虚的感觉。也许我在想太多吧。

好遥远的感觉。。。

The Forgotten Place

2009-03-02T21:24:00.002+08:00

The walls of the building seen by public was nicely and beautifully painted, surrounding it was large areas of empty green fields. Countless fish ponds can be seen around the many buildings. Anyone there for the first time would think that they have just stepped into a paying class home or maybe a condo even. The place seems so alive yet dead. Its a place thats so beautiful, yet too beautiful for such a place. Simply put, unbelievable; unexpected. Its a pity that its beauty is hardly used though i can understand why it is so.

Entering within the building itself is like entering into another dimension. It is humane but then again looking at all the details...

I had imagine before how it would looked liked and was similiar to what had be described to me. But imagining and being in there in person is altogether another thing. I think i was hypoventilenting slightly due to the anxiety, fear or maybe not knowing what to expect for an hour till i finally saw them. They were not as percular as what i had in mind.

Leaving the grounds felt like i was back into a cilivised world. Their existence is known to everyone yet it seems to be foreign and forgotten by everyone. I won't deny that i belong to that category.

Personally i would prefer to be diagnosed and suffering from any disease/illness but mental illness. I will still want my human rights, freedom and ability to make decisions for myself. Neither do i want to take such medications that cause such terrible side effects. Hopefully their world is something and somewhere which i will remember for the rest of my life and no longer forgotten by me, myself. They are people whom i would like to help but i don't think i can every see myself working in such a confined environment.

Its a sad place.

Outcasted; Stigmatised

After Thoughts

2009-02-27T23:48:00.002+08:00

NUH attachment has come to an end. Well, my lecturer had disclosed to me that i had done very well for my 2 postings even the Sister of the ward was quite impressed i heard.*grins* Today one of my friends could have nearly cause a death due to her carelessness, blurness, what ever you would liketo desribe her. Was pretty mad at her actually.

Enough of her. Anyway i was thinking if it had been the wrong choice to let Sister know i was keen to join her ward though i admit its a nice ward to work in, i guess. The thoughts of them having higher expectations of me now that they know me are making me having second thoughts. On the other hand, at least i know that i'm competent enough to impress the ward staff. XD

Next mon i'll be back to work again but at IMH. I would probably dread morning shifts as its super far away. I'm only half looking forward to this posting. Cant wait for hols to start. The whole of yr 2 feels super jam pack. Each hols are filled with posting and proj to rush. Hence it feels as good as without hols actually. Further more, there is aikido and its own issues. The thought about it kinda makes me frsutrated. It seems never ending. Shall not elaborate further though.

Ahh.. yes, this sunday would be grading. I'm so not looking forward to it.

For what ever reason, i feel like curling myself up and hide.
Rest.

Night Cycling

2009-02-22T17:31:00.002+08:00

Been and back from east coast park to changi beach. Simply put went night cycling with my classmates actually. Slept under a pavallion for abt an hr at changi beach as we played poker cards till 3am. XD

2 casualties occured with one injured on the knee. The other just ened up with quite abit of bruises, which was me.. hahaa... well i wont deny that aikido did help. XD

First time going night cycling.. hmm.. i would say i enjoyed it though im seriously lacking of sleep. haha. If there is another time i would most probably go but then again it depends.

Sleepy~
29th mar 09

2009-02-20T20:34:00.002+08:00

Exams over!

3 more weeks of attachment then it will be hols!

Hopefully during the last 2 weeks i'll be able to go to Tioman. (a change of destination)

It will then be the start of yr 3.

Which reminds me, i would have ALOT of things to plan.

29th March 09
ps: its not typed wrongly

飞轮海。。。

Current Mood: Madness XD

2009-02-13T23:27:00.002+08:00

Probably my title would not be exactly related to what ever im going to write. Cant be bothered. hahaa

Attachment over for the past 4 weeks. I would say in general its rather enjoyable especially at ward 42. The staff are all super nice and they treat us part of their team.XD The best part i would say is i was able to take case. I learnt alot but i was LOST. hahaa. Just today i was comparng with my classmate abt TTSH and it seems like their paper work is so much simpler as compared to NUH only that each staff have to take 12-18 patients which at NUH just probably 6-9? Sheer madness.. The amount of work that has to be done is crazy. Man~ To conclude, this attachment is one fruitful one. :)

Anyway exams started the following week after my posting end. Which is definitely CRAZY. Too much to study and there is no time plus to add on the fact a tired posting just ended. The funniest thing is i was listening to the radio (98.7 FM) and someone from my lect group called to complain about the arrangement of postings then exam.. Which totally sux. And such an arrangement does not happen in NP.

2 papers down, 3 more to go with bio being the killer paper this time.. topic: microbiology. totally sux. keeping my fingers cross. after exams, it would be grading once again and i think im totally not prepared for it. i cannot imagine how i will perform that day.... anyway i think my juniors all should do pretty fine..

After exams, 4 weeks in all to NUH and IMH. Somehow i'm kind of looking forward to this posting. I guess probably i really like the staff whom i was working with. (: One sad thing is that my friends are all having hols first then posting while im the opposite which makes me without company during my hols. Anyway we are planning on a trip to REDANG. XD hopefully it will be successful. No idea why but i'm really looking forward to having an overseas trip this hols. A family trip seems like a nono since my sis will be busy already. Keeping my fingers crossed. Oh yea i have to renew my passport by then. LOL

I wonder how i will look like with bangs..

I've been having the urge to run eveday for the past few days. I wonder why but i'm definitely feeling the sense of satisfaction. XD

飞轮海 。。。

2009-01-24T20:21:00.002+08:00

Been and back from ward 41. I would say its pretty enjoyable working there as compared to the other wards i guess.. in terms of the SNs. Simply put, i think its quite cooperative ward? well i have been there for only 2 weeks so cant really say much. Probably the best thing is i got to work with Sushma again! My best buddy during work. HEHE! Well gonna miss working with her since she will probably be going to SGH due to some unforseen circumstances. Another sad thing would be we will be in different wards the next 2 weeks after CNY. Hopefully we will be in the same shift so we still can go to work n home together. (:

Next 2 weeks i'll be in ward 56 and apparently my lecturere wants us to handle one case. Literally handle, like a staff nurse... o.O well definitely it will be a good experience but the thought that i'll be definitely lost is no good. tsk tsk.. wonder how are my friends doing at IMH. hehe..

The thought of exams straight after attachment totally sux. *fingers crossed*

Oh yes hopefully i can go on overseas during my hols! :D

Though a little early, 新年快乐!!!

I'll miss u!

Things

2009-01-04T00:12:00.003+08:00

Its just endless. Once we get on with life they return again. Somehow i get the feeling like we are "things" which are emotionless with no perception rather than "humans".

Its feels like once the grip is loosen, the "things" are lost to the other party though i know that will never happen for sure.

What i cannot understand is why can't these people empathize, not sympathize. Anyway it isn't their life but ours and his so they totally have no right. Bug off....

Okay, now i look like an ah lian all thanks to desmond. I'm so gonna complain the next time i see him. lol

The situation just had to get more complicated. I will follow what i think is right & best.

Happy New Year!

2009-01-01T20:58:00.004+08:00

2008 has come to an end. Time sure past really fast! Well i would say its pretty much a great year despite the ups and downs..the experiences, events, learning, adapting, friends and the list goes on.

Relationships
Take 2 hands to clap.
Accepting and tolerating each other for who they are.
Give in when possible but not all the time.
Being flexible and understanding to the situation.
Forgive them for their mistakes done as human errs.
When a negative situation occurs, don't just think of the problems but also look at the bright side. Its the same as when 2 people quarrel, don't just remember the negative points of a person but also the positive. Something which humans always forget.

Responsibilities
If its given to you, do it well. If not don't even start. Something that i live by.

Things im proud of over the year..
Finally owning an i-pod and Levis jeans.
Having great friends in poly.
Entering this course which has changed me to a certain extend in terms of perception and maybe character.
Mummy seems to be having an easier life.
Ms Ng having a bf.
Bx doing well in school.
Soon to be certified first-aider.
Still in contact with my pri and sec sch friends.
And the list continues....

A Fool; Album out soon! yes!!! XD

Update, Random, Madness

2008-12-05T21:07:00.003+08:00

Been some time since i last updated hence it will be a compilation of the main events i can rmb over the past few weeks.. (:

Had 2 free tickets for a concert, music monster, which was given by SH. It was a pretty last minute event but anyway went with feraldine and apparently it had brought our friendship closer together. (: The performers were LOLLIPOP(which at that point of time i had no fricking idea who they were) and ENERGY. (: It was enjoyable but the sign boards of the fans were simply irritating (i'm kinda short!!!). lol Mayb i'll update some pictures soon.. maybe....

Celebrated my Ms Ng's bday last weekend at Sizzler. Btw happy belated bday! lol... spent quite a bit on that day. anyway that aside. the food there was ok.. hmmm i may return there for round 2 buffet. hehe..

Life with my classmate these few weeks have been pretty mad! haha.. Shall not elaborate much but we went swimming in sch recently. (: Been staying back in sch everyday to study and slack! Hmm will be having my BCLS test soon. *fingers corssed* hahaa. i'm loving my elective though it can be tiring. it made me realise i have little endurance when it comes to exercise. -_-

Random
A $50 dollar note is something which everyone wants. When it is being crushed, stepped and spitted at, people will still want it. Simply because it has its value still despite the state of that piece of paper. So..what abt us. we are definitely of value and our self-worth is definitely still the same even after people criticize us. Its a matter of we will allow it to affect us. (:

I heard over the news today that there is a new strain of MRSA virus. Once again mutation of virus has occurred. The usual antibiotics doesn't work on it. Those who understand will know what this means... Good luck to the medical staff. o.O

Hungry.. lol

Mr. B.L.

2008-11-10T22:02:00.003+08:00

Mr. B.L. probably will be someone whom i will not easily forget.

Unknowingly he easily rekindled those feelings which i had years back in a matter of less than 5minutes

It was something which i thought i have gotten over and left behind for a few years.

Those same exact feelings...

Now one qsn lies in my head. Have i gotten over it... or probably a few more...

It took me some time to figure out how he manage to do it so successfully which i think i may have understood.

Probably now i'll be his attention during his lesson. If he remembers..

I take my hat off but he is skilled and trained after all.

simply busy

2008-11-05T23:43:00.003+08:00

Have not updated for quite some time already. anyway shall do a quick update.

As my title says, busy, extremely.lol

Shagged. Have yet to reach a knackered stage maybe.

Sch work, proj, test.

I seriously need sleep but i don't seem to have the time to do so.

Overslept and miss lect=miss whole day of sch. (only that lesson for the day)

Awesome seminar. Fukakusa Shihan Sensei. Enjoyed both training and partner.(:

Socialise and build friendship with my juniors.

Enjoying every moment of Sze Huey Story....

My boy friends are telling me to sleep more. (as much as i want to...) 1 reason y its good to be in SHS. No guys=Gals need not dress up n look pretty! (:

Flower Orchard

2008-10-19T18:26:00.005+08:00

My uncle drop by the flower orchard at thomson while sending us home. I've blogged about that place before but i cant resist doing so again.

I love that place.

Its freaking cold with 2 huge rooms of different temperatures.

The room with a higher tempt already has water vapor which can be seen when we talk.

The colder room has very beautiful flowers like roses etc.

I love the smell of the place filled with a mixture of flower scent. Reminds me of the pantry at Ritz.

My nose turned cold and numb till it got difficult to smell the scent.

My mom bought 2 bouquets of flowers hence my house smells nice now.

No offense to the flowers from the market but they kinda stink. hehee..

By right taking pictures were not allowed but i did anyway. (:

I simply love it... (:

Spenditure

2008-10-18T11:23:00.004+08:00

Today while going to the market for breakfast i realize that maybe its about time to change my birkenstock slippers.
A new hair clip which i have been wanting for some time but have not seen one i liked.
Maybe a pair of ear studs which i think i've been looking for months... lol
Change the battery of my fossil watch which has been dead for months already.
Maybe get a psp slim which i have been contemplating for at least a year now and still contemplating. But its most likely will be getting it?
Share cost for the new plasma tv. -.-

These should be all for now i guess? lol

All of the above are not a necessity in my life besides sharing cost for the tv. They merely add sparks to my life thats all.. and my project on recording what i spend as an excessive behavior.. if i were to get these during my period of recording.. tsk tsk.. haha.. but well i'm suppose to live my life like normal while recording so it would be more accurate. zzz the conscious of a human...

Think i'll spend my day today clearing up my pharm and prepare my lab lesson homework(if there is). Plus have a look at my projects and maybe start something(rather unlikely i'll do. lol) and mayb revise my modules?(this motivation would soon be gone.haha) Well this depends if i have the time too since i might be going to see her run her races today. Gambatte! (:

Cute!!! hahaaa..

Back at sch..

2008-10-17T22:12:00.004+08:00

School has once again started. Year 2 semester 2... time has past so fast. in 2 weeks times i'll be having my PRCP next year. well approximately... lol.. that is like super duper fast!

One lecturer super funny.. she asked me this "so u going to have your PSLE?" well she had wanted to say BCLS ( basic cardiac life support) butshe forgot the acronym for it.silly... haha. shall not name the lecturer. (:

Week 1 has just ended and i'll be having my first presentation in week 4 or 5. thats super fast. oh man... and i think presentations would last till week 8 or 9. then after the 2 weeks break probably there are more presentations?

Another sad thing is that my attachment would be at week 14 to 17 hence exams would start straight away!!! How will i have the time to revise and study.... gotta be more hardworking and revise my work everyday..? well it always fails when i start to get busy with my projects.. oh well... shall see how things go..

My modules this sem i guess are better than last sem so far i think.. i like especially mental health and the lecturers who are teaching.. behavioural seems interesting... okay.. simply put the new modules are interesting and definitely better than last sem. BUT i still kinda dislike adult nursing (though i think im slowly getting the hang) and bio.. microbiology. dislike the lecturer and the module. this time lab lecturer makes me feel lost n gives me a messy feeling.. the way she taught made me mixed up all my injections and previously what i had learnt! thats really terrible... tsktsk.. no such mistakes can be made in lab..

The lecturers who are teaching me mental health has made me become interested and intruged in that area.. today i just asked my mom what if i were to work in IMH? she couldn give me an ans.. haha..not surprised.. but i wonder what if i really do have the interest and do work there.. hmm..

okay.. now i have to wait till abt 12 cuz my mom wants me to off the washing machine.. zzzz..

2008-10-09T00:07:00.002+08:00

Been some time since i last blog. shall do a quick update since i'm also rather tired.

Grading is over. Think i did pretty bad though sensei did comment something about me... Now its just waiting for the results.

My cartoon is back again.

Fixed up a car model. I'm amazed with myself.

Today's training is tiring or am i just solely tired. Suwariwaza all the way then rolling.

I need to get a bday present for my sis.

I need to buy the hair cream/oil thingy since my sis used it up.

Preparing for a storm? I'm sleepy....

2008-10-01T15:26:00.003+08:00

Current song playing: Together when... by Ayumi Hamasaki link if u can.. =p

Things have change. All had happened too fast though i had expected something like this to happen. Just not this fast or maybe even this far or extend.

I've always been in control or like things to be in control but now things seem to be in a mess.

Now i'm just going to wait and see how things go. That is the only way anyway.

There is 2 reasons why i was told that. One is the reason that was told to me, the other is burden. So what am i suppose to do now. hmm..

Guess i kind of surprise dp. Doesn't matter. Only a matter of time. I kind of hate myself for that but can't exactly help or maybe i don't want to? But nvm its gonna be ok! I'll survive! haha.. (:

Don't wish to say too much here. Not too good to express to much here. Who knows what will happen if i do. So ppl, don't tag abt this issue! Especially those who know what has been going on and what's on my mind. I do hope ruzaini does add me to his msn.

I still hope that promise made would still be kept. A promise is a promise. To stand up after a fall whether or not i'm around. That what was said is true. It is just a rest for now.

5th Oct is gonna be grading alr. Hope everyone would turn up. It aint that easy to fail.

5th Oct.....

Who's free to go out with me every single day? lol. Anyway KJ just pass me a game. Similar to dj max! o2jam. But the nutty thing is it has 7 keys which is nuts. psp is still more fun. haiz..oh well.. Hopefully that keeps my mind off things for a tiny while. (:

Wait is the only choice.
Letting this be for now.
I need to ask ruzaini something.

2008-09-26T22:19:00.003+08:00

Went out for lunch with my sis n alex at novena square or the other extended building? anyway went down to wisma to collect my hp. yes. i finally send it for repair. oh yes. and i 'packed' my table cuz i needed to find the $1 which belongs to club fund. i merely rearrange everything back to where is it suppose to be. also i 'packed' my wardrobe but just refolding. well i 'packed' what i had wanted! lol.

Met nic for dinner at westmall cuz the rest had some other reasons. Went to his house ltr to play with Holden and partly i didn want to go home that early. well didn stay for long either since he is having his exams but i would say nic has changed. of cuz a good way. (: Meeting nic cheered me up. (:

Decided to walk home cuz it was still super early. past by the bb court and saw a huge bunch of kids having taekwondo class. sat there for abt an hr. i kinda concluded that class was kinda hopeless. it was too big a group and like a market. i can imagine if farid was there almost everyone would be listening to him ar. haha.

Came home to see my younger sis sleeping on my bed as usual. but her position looks.. cant really describe.. erm.. sweet? but it doesn quite match her. looks comfortable at first sight but after 1hr she was still in that position then it kinda look uncomfortable but ok.. lol wadever layho.. anyway our body would naturally turn its position by 2 hrs at most. thats y we dun get pressure sores. lol..

Unappreciated? maybe.. but no more info anymore. definitely. As far as possible i'll wash my hands off this matter.

2008-09-22T23:08:00.003+08:00

This whole week is gonna be extremely boring. Nvm. just one more week...

Is it me or its true.. wadever it is it sux.

After being helped n being treated like shit ltr really...

Unwanted.

Fed-up.

Make me feel wanted & happy..

2008-09-21T23:53:00.003+08:00

Going into my 2nd week of hols now. I'm enjoying my hols so far i guess with a spoiled television since the Olympics so my only entertainment at home is just my lappy which i'm going to send for 'repair' sometime soon. sobs... oh yes and so will my handphone too.. The problem with being to reliant on technology...hmm mayb next week? or the following week since dp will be so free! yes!

Well i spent my first week going k box & iceskating. Super fun.. hehe. And shopping with dp. Er.. a fruitfull shopping with a hole in my pocket? LOL anyway bought a new bag and exact top as dp. hahaa. And of cuz spending lots of time with cartoon. hehe..

Hmm.. i think what i want now is
-Wardrobe fill with a new range of clothes for me to select from?
-Save money for driving lience and futher studies if i do and future use
-Send my hp for repair
-Meet up with my sec sch clique
-Eat nice food
-Maybe clean up my table and wardrobe? haha
-Cartoon

Thats all i can think of now... Now i want to enjoy drinking my cold chocolate milk! oh yes i want to complain abt something: Now we cant eat so many chocolates n food cause of that stupid china prob. haiz. my beloved chocolate.. zzz

They are such and ass..
My Cartoon

done

2008-09-18T11:15:00.003+08:00

Been a super long time since i went for 2nd class training and i finally went ytd. lol. anyway lets start with first class. I manage to do the kokyu ho once correctly! yes! haha. but it was only that one time, the following times felt wrong already. zzz.. well doing it once is definitely a start. (:

Thankful i have hui ru to partner me ytd. Glad she came for class and stayed for 2nd class too. haha. The whole of 2nd class we were on our knees all the time, which means suwari waza the whole time. Sensei kept coming to us to check if we were doing correctly and i was the centre of attraction once again. o.O lol..

anyone knows of a place where i can book a big room n preferably have some mats?

hmm do i regret doing that? no idea & reason to cuz it wouldn make a difference whether or not i regret cuz its already done.

wondering mind...

sheer randomness

2008-09-13T23:44:00.005+08:00

Well today i was suppose to go ice skating but ended up at the saloon with li en. LOL we both did our hairs out of sheer randomness. hmm at least i look nice for tmr as i'll be celebrating my mom's bday. well actually on an earlier date.. anyway will be going iceskating some time this week but i need 2 other ppl to come along to get the package and skate unlimited time. please join li en n me....? hint.. LOL

End of Attachment

2008-09-12T23:02:00.005+08:00

As the title says, attachment has finally ended! yes! i've been busy since april till now i think. Now finally i can slack. literally. (:

Lets round up this attachment. Overall, i manage to practice a few skills and my CI allowed me to do dressing on my own. That's like the best part! Need not to be assessed while doing the dressing. super fun! love it.. Was suppose to have a 2nd chance in doing dressing on my own but the stupid staff nurse stole it. -_-'' oh well. i would say this is the best posting so far in terms of being able to learn, gain and practice of everything. definitely say i learn smth from this posting unlike the other postings i think? lol..

Quite a few things happen but its too long to have it typed out. haha.. anyway i'll miss my bed 17. he has been with me since the start of my attachment n till end but sadly he's still there. i always like the patients whom i took care off to go home before i leave the ward. The super great thing is that his condition has great improvement. And i'm very proud of his achievement. (: Hopes he get recovers at this rate then he will be near perfect as before soon. (: Mayb i shall visit him? lol..

Now its 4 weeks of hols. enjoyment. hmm what shall i do then? no idea.. going for training is definitely now that grading is coming up. OMG. im so dead, haven been going for training and missing so many 2nd classes! sharks... oh n have my hair done up nicely again. (: ODP when are u gonna be free?! haha..

Hmm my mom's bday is next tue but will be celebrating this sun. Any suggestions where to dine at? (:

Have faith that it will all turn out well... (:

Mid posting

2008-09-04T22:09:00.002+08:00

HAHA he apologise to me. I was quite surprise but still i kind of dislike him. hehe. Doesn't matter much, tmr is going to be his last day and off to another ward. In a way good but bad.

I realise i'm starting to get to what i'm doing, the routines of NUH. I'm getting used to being an AN for now as what ever we are doing is what AN's are doing. Well not totally an AN yet. But i definitely have a long way still in being a SN. A long long way.

Now im sleepy. lala here i come.

starting to dislike..?

Beginning of the posting.

2008-08-28T22:10:00.003+08:00

I dislike my posting to the ward this time.
First day at work and i feel its kinda crap up.
My nature to be straight forward or mayb sometimes a little too much.
But if there with a learning attitude then accept.
In doubt ask.
If they don't ask neither will i bother to explain.
In the wards be flexible and not follow the books.
Books are dead.
Be there with a learning attitude.
A change is smth that i've always tried to do in myself.
And still trying.
1 more torturing week before the whole bunch is gone.

I like my shs posting to cck pri.
The kids were small and cute..
Everything there was tiny.
Reminds me of my pri sch back then.
I wish i could be there longer.

sheer boredom

2008-08-24T15:02:00.003+08:00

My exams are finally over. (: the many months of stress have disappeared. Spending my weekend reading a book by Cecelia Ahern, Thanks for the memories, which i've actually just finished reading in just 2 days. i think her other books are nicer. think i might be heading to the bookstore soon for more books. lol.. Well there is nothing much which i can do besides resting at home which feels super great as i have slack for months.. Anyway i am suppose to rest so hopefully i can be well by tomorrow as my attachment starts and will end 3 weeks later.

Tonsillitis is gone but i'm down with flu and a very bad cough. sheesh i've been coughing till my sides hurt already. the stupid doc said i should be okay by tmr but it does seem otherwise. urgh.. this doc is kinda crap. hopefully i'm slightly better by tmr. even slightly would make me happy i guess. lol..

Well i'm kinda bored now so u may not want to bother wasting your time reading the rest of the post cuz i think its probably kinda crap. haha...

Fri after my paper i went to AMK to play pool. have not touched the cue stick in months but i actually won all the games i played. cool~ i thought that wei jie would win me but i won. Now the urge of playing pool is back.. who wants to play? (: odp.... hint hint.. haha hopefully u read this..

Sat i met odp for dinner at westmall.. so nice of her to choose somewhere close.. awww. =p Ate at the foodcourt then we slack at coffee bean for like about 3 hours? its been a super long time since we last did this. super.. wonder when the next time will be.. probably the following weekend. my guess is she will want shopping. lol..chances of me agreeing is..... hehe..

Sun which is today. woke up to accompany my mom to the market. just the 2 of us. i like the feeling i had this morning. A feeling which i don't know how to describe. all i know its a nice feeling and i like it. XD

Tmr will be the start of yet another posting. heard the ward ppl are =S i wonder how.. hopefully the CI is going to be nice. like the previous one. She purposely spends her time talking to us so we spend lesser time in the ales. well she knew the staff there were.. yup.. crossing my fingers hoping it would not be susan leong cuz she is always posted to NUH. zzz

My fav song is stilll always be my baby by david cook. i wonder y and for such a long time.. lol. ok this is super random.

signing off... (:

pls let me be better tmr...

Tonsillitis

2008-08-18T18:19:00.003+08:00

Went to see the doc today. he diagnosed me as having tonsillitis. he gave me 3 days mc from the 19th to 21st of aug. which means no training. zzz.. And if i don't feel any better by tmr night he suggest i'll be off to NUH. o.O ok now im having extreme pain in my head. any change in position of my head causes such sharp pain. wince~ without movement the pain is still there and almost bearable. thank goodness adult nursing is over. now left wth bio and pharmocology. -.-crossing my fingers hoping i can still study. omg..

argh.. the pain....

2008-08-17T11:42:00.002+08:00

I've been sick for nearly a week already. And it doesn't seem to get any better instead i think its becoming worse. This is crap. argh!

I think i'm dead for my next few papers. Too much to study but too little time. My mind feels like its gonna blow but the main cause i guess is the illness.. hmm..

Well its definitely the right thing i did. i know it. Now its just taking a step at a time.

coughing my lungs out. a blowing brain.

2008-08-14T15:42:00.002+08:00

Currently, im sick.

Not the best time to be sick now that im having my exams. but then again i don't seem to have the time to fall ill either.

Before exams: the last min crapped up projects which is a nono to fall sick

Before being back at sch: attachment! definitely i do not want to repeat the posting

After exams: attachment again!

Now: Exams!!!!

Is it singaporeans or students or my life is so busy till i have no time to fall sick.. lol.

Well with one paper down finally n hopefully i can pass with a malfunctioning brain, 3 more to go. the last 3 are like driving me nuts. especially adult nursing!!!! omg.. how to rmb so many health conditions with each individual signs symptoms meds pre/post op care and the rational!!! zzz

oh man.. pls let me be well soon so i can study for my papers.. o.O

The Bridge; Malfunctioning Brain

2008-08-07T19:01:00.002+08:00

Everything just had to go wrong today.

I thought it was terrible. really terrible.

Maybe my high expectations. what ever it is, it was terrible, everything just went wrong.. in my perspective..

'If only...' thoughts traveling through my mind..

Was it me only or everyone... nvm i'll take the blame.. those were not a reason for it to happen.

Best part, turned on the radio first song i heard 'had a bad day' by danial powter. interesting.. ...

Wonder if i should even say this. thanks to those who msg me. did it mattered much..no idea..

Confidence gone. obvious. how about tmr... the last one.

the focus

2008-08-03T23:48:00.003+08:00

Well, i spent the past few days or mayb 2 weeks ago at beauty world mac mugging.. yes. layho is mugging once again. lol. somehow i feel more worried for my bio and adult nursing paper as there are many things to rmb and i haven gotten the time to start on anything. omg.. as for pharm thanks to the mock testes but i think all the facts just got mix up again. lol

This week is gonna be one super crazy week(mon) which is about to start in 9mins according to the time im seeing now. lol. good luck to me then. haha.. apparently the stupid cms isn't working and had been planning to see the e-learning lessons.. -.- the sch system sux.. lol

2 things:
whats the point of forcing someone and reaching the goal without a valid purpose?
responsibility

the world doesn revolve around a person; good luck to me. lol

wednesday

2008-07-30T17:43:00.002+08:00

well have a quick update before going for training. hopefully i get to partner jo again and she doesn reach too late? lol

feels great to not have sch on a wed when everyone else is in sch.. haha.. im evil i know. (: anyway just spend the whole day clearing up my ALL my projects. well its all mostly done alr i guess but there is still the editing part left which i think should be quite alright. (: finally~ *sigh* sadly i haven even touched any of my books for today. oh well, nvm i'll be going to sch earlier tmr just to study. o.O 3 more weeks to go.. (: (self-encouragement -.-")

dont think i have the time to rest over this weekend.. i wanna slack!!!! zzzz...

time for training..

spurred

2008-07-23T23:41:00.002+08:00

Alright, i'll have a post up before the feeling goes off and i'm to busy to blog anything. (:

School has started again. so far im surviving for now with every break used to do projects or study. o.O the joy of school life.. hahaa.

Anyway i finally went for training, yes finally.. kind of lost the feeling to train over the past few weeks due to attachment and i didn get to partner whom i'll enjoy my time with..

First class was rather enjoyable. i didn get to know that lady's name but she is good(techniques) and nice.. talks (and smiles which is rare for ppl from cairnhill ), teaches/corrects my mistakes and shows me where i'm so open to an attack.. i still have a super long way to go in perfecting my techniques now that i know even more mistakes which i still do make.. She threw me like nothing and the number of times i actually just got slammed onto the mat.. -.- i can imagine if she really just go with the technique.. o.O

Second class was made even more enjoyable cause i partnered JO! (: a super long time since i last partnered her and chatted with her..we kept giggling or mayb it was just me.. hmm.. no other words to describe 2nd class except enjoyable XD hmm or mayb without the part i was in heaven for 5sec when kotegaishi was done on my right wrist. lol

Today's training reminded me why i kept on going for training before my attachment. to understand how to do the techniques or perfecting them which means also having enjoyable partners. well hopefully this would spur me to go for monday classes next week or mayb even wed classes. but with 6 proj and 2 test/exam over the next 2 weeks.. im so going to enjoy the next 1 and half months.. -.-

Anyway i should be rushing to do my proj now or at least even studying.. o.O

spur me on...

beginning or the end

2008-07-20T17:40:00.003+08:00

well attachment has ended and sch is starting.. i don't know if i should be happy that my posting has ended or sch is starting. the tiring work or the never ending probs from proj and exams.. not comforting..

Lela called me earlier on.. she has to make up 1 week of her posting as she got conjunctivitis. hahaa.. how the whole story started was quite funny but shall not bore those who do read my blog. lol.

She told me this: relax and don't stress yourself layho.. enjoy your last day, tmr then start to stress about the projects... well she had admited over the past 4 weeks none of them had thought abt the proj except me? haha.. kinda true as i've to edit the slides. looking through the slides, i have no comments... oh well all the extra work.. o.O

Should i go out and slack after dinner later since i know i wont be able to do so over the next month or so...

behind the close curtains...

Paediatrics

2008-07-19T12:46:00.002+08:00

2 weeks at NUH paeds ward. well initially i kind of dislike being in the department but by the end of the 2 weeks i'm actually quite ok in this department. well, im still not very sure if i'll will want to be in that department in the future though. lol

The attachment ended with ot as usual, for me, as always. But it was a sad ending unlike my other attachments. cant explain what had happen.. well at least the most of my patients whom i have taken care of went home which is nice (:

Hmm my family conclusion is funny but neither can i be bothered by it. oh well..

Be strong no matter what. Fall when u need to. When fallen rmb to stand up ltr.

o.O

2008-07-06T13:30:00.001+08:00

i was perpetually staring only at my bowl of porridge over lunch.

i feel like talking to someone/go out..

i feel like crap.

irritated

2008-07-03T23:36:00.003+08:00

extremely irritated n pissed. extremely. your are like only 4 yrs older than me. and im alr 18 yrs old. nth big till i deserved that la. grow up and control yourself. so much for who is more stubborn and violent. u are tired so am i and its not like i every vented my frustrations that way before even when im extremely extremely tired. bad mood yes i admit but never to this extend like what u did. i did not do anything disrespectful to u in the first place and i talked nicely to u. that was overboard.

tired then dun go out with anyone and stay home n rest.

i feel hurt cause i respect u..

fuck

Gynecology

2008-07-03T22:52:00.002+08:00

My week at the gyn is coming to an end so is my attachment at KKH. well the food there sux but the staff there are actually quite nice. they taught us alot and hence we are able to do many things though but right we are not allowed to. LOL.

My week....
twice i've seen an aborted fetus. the first one was a 20 weeker in other words abt 5 months old alr. its really kinda sad. all well formed and growing well. it was a he.. the 2nd aborted fetus was not exactly well formed and the brain was all jelly. gross but its sad. all the mixed feelings i got when i saw the dead fetus.. lifeless.. there goes another life.. a torture...

saw a husband cried.. the couple had so much wanted for a baby but they had no choice but to abort they baby which no longer had any heartbeat. seeing couples, women so want babies so much but they cant while on the other hand they just want to get rid of the tiny life in their womb. well of there are some who are in a dilemma.

well i've enjoyed my posting. understanding life etc. the vulnerability... i managed to learn, do n see many things and im glad despite the really boring times. lol

ps: there is a cute doc and i assisted him twice when he was inserting the cervagem(drug) into the patient's vagina. LOL ok wadever layho... heh

Birthdays..

2008-06-29T13:11:00.007+08:00

Gonna update before i dunno when i ever will. haha.. ytd spent the day at jp with dp to celebrate bdays. hmm i saw a pair of shoee that i like but again NO SIZE!!! sad la.. i like that pair. haiz.. problem with too small feet. o.O

dinner was a combine celebration for zb n dp. we caught the movie 10 promises to my dog.. hmm i like the dog n the show. (: ltr on we surprised dp at 12am 29th june 08. she was watching some horror movie at that time. lol.freaked her out..

today i spent the day shopping with her again and we both bought jeans.. lol..she psyco me.. joking. heh..oh n she bought a bag.. spent our dinner at lerk thai.. the food there not too bad. (:

enough said.. lets have pics to do the talking this time..

yesterday at jp..

us eating at sakae sushi

zb opening his belated present (:

ed shock to have a present too when his bday was in jan. shall not explain y.

dp n me

waiting for 12midnight to come at mac near her house..

ed the loner lol

nic n zb playing the DS -.-

n they were still hungry. actually all the guys got smth to munch while waiting at macs

i was bored till i started playing ard with my camera functions.lol

the supposed shock face of dp.lol.. sadly i forgot to change the camera funtion. -.-

happy birthday to u.....~ sing-a-long hahaa

her family only that short of her bro. thankful her mom kept it a secret n dp was blur not to notice anthing =p

dp me nic zb and ed. from the left to right.
i look super short...

(:

and lastly today's shopping with her (:

i realise smth.. i left my attachment log book in ward 81. i forgot to bring home after fri. omg im so dead if its gone.. like so dead.. o.O please be there tmr morning....

10 promises to my dog;shag

OBS posting

2008-06-25T22:32:00.004+08:00

Being in the OBS ward is kinda boring. hardly any call bells so its just walking aimlessly around the whole ward. lol Well being in the nursery is more entertaining.. feeding the babies n changing the pampers. lol.

Today was kinda interesting and can say a little more busy as compared to the previous 2 days.. there were more babies to attend to today and today i got my fingers bloody.. cool.. lol let me explain, the lecturer showed us one of the mom's placenta. felt a little queasy but alright.. bloody cool. LOL sounds wrong but it was bloody. i managed to serve medicine to one of the patient's today. yay! oh and today my fishmonger's wife just gave birth! LOL kinda cool.. couldn recogonise initially.. what a small world.. (:

oh yes today one of the babies peeeeed on me! open him pampers to clean his poopoo n he decided to pee.. -.- i dun like this baby cuz i dun like the parents. and y? cuz i got scolding from them on the FIRST day at KKH. what a welcome. heh.. think this kid is G6PD deficieny or doubtful so he is a lodger (staying in the nursery when the mom is discharged). too bad.. tsk tsk naughty boy. anyway he pee 2x n the 2nd time happen to my friend. hehehe..

i should be sleeping soon.. doing morning tmr so gotta wake up at 5. o.o oh well nitex to all then (:

shag;i miss training..

2 weeks

2008-06-22T16:42:00.002+08:00

My 2 weeks of hols just went past in a snap. I nv really got to enjoy like how hols is suppose to be like. -.-

The whole hols im trying to clear all my projects. i have 6 proj in all which 5 have to be presented and the 6th is a blog. im not trying to be bad but i admit i dont exactly trust the one who is doing up the blog. sadly im an IT idiot and no one else besides her knows how to do the blog. oh well.. im kinda tired alr actually. lol.. the endless editing of everything.

Well all my proj are to be handed in when i return from my 4 weeks attachments which will start tmr. and i haven started to find anything. im far from prepared for my attachment. *sign* after the presentations it will be the exams.. everything is all packed and comes continuously. man~

well i heard yr 3 will be worse cuz of the PRCP. and now i find myself struggling with yr2 alr.. omg..hopefully i dun regret joining this course.. o.o

oh well this is kinda how my hols pass. oh plus planning the outing for my club. glad that they enjoyed themselves if not i'll be so dissappointed with myself. thats how my hols flew past..

shag and tired..

ytd was history; tmr is a mystery; today is a gift

junior's sentosa 08

2008-06-18T11:44:00.003+08:00

Organise an aiki outing ytd. i think everyone had enjoyed themselves but i sure did. lol.. man i missed my big guy and anyway it would be fun without him. hehe.. i lost my voice now n of cuz burnt.. haha. wadever.. shall let the pic do the talking this time.. (:

ps: shiro's camera skills not bad.

Our darling president doing her run!

ooo not bad.. i can't do this still. dropping to my knees stays vividly on my mind. -.- haha

omg..

my big guy! *laughs*

those who there ytd.

shiro's pic. anyway it means aikido in chinese. nice~

grading

2008-06-02T14:54:00.004+08:00

Im in school now and super bored. By right im suppose to be studying but i cant concentrate. feeling kinda crappy now.. like something bothering you but there is no reason..? hmm mayb the stress. wadever. most likely i won't be going for training this week due to the test. mayb i should have brought my gi today to go for training to losen up a little..

anyway had grading yesterday and which reminds me that nic cant make it for his judo grading as he fractured his fibula. the best part is judo grading is very long and also his fracture occured just before his grading.. haha i shouldn be reminding him this.. =p

As i was saying, had my grading yesterday. before grading i felt nothing till the goggle man ask us to enter the dojo. immediately felt the rush of adrenaline till my grading ended. *nervous* i didnt like the position i was standing but oh well. haha.. overall i think i did quite alright but my free movement.. urgh* extremely horrible. no idea what stupid move i did when i was attacked from a showman. hopefully none of the judges caught me doing crap. lol

grately to joanna who always partner me but feel kinda bad cuz she cant really train with me. im easily thrown like a rag doll by practically anyone. i think my balance is far from good mayb partly due to my size as compared with everyone else. small. oh well.. (=

cant wait for this week to end so i will have 2 weeks of rest but i think it well not be exactly that. after that 4 weeks attachment. 3 weeks of presentations. lastly exams. frick so fast la and then the end of yr 2. man..

stoning;listless;rude

:S

2008-05-29T00:34:00.002+08:00

ok i'm suppose to be sleeping now but i just ate cup noodles and still feel hungry. -.-
my hair is far from dry so i'm just waiting.
what ever the case is i think i cant really fall asleep though i know im kinda tired..

amazingly nic is already discharged from AH alr. the next day after his op is done. *surprise* probably will visit him over the weekend or smth.. wonder how is he surviving so far.. hmmm.. probably the same. =p

oh.. i passed all my test!!! well for this week only though. well i can say i'm rather satisfied with my results. passed my clinical assessment, B for stats and i think i should be able to do well for my clinical theory. in other words, i'm being hopeful that i will do well for my clinical module.. hmm..*cross fingers* next week research and bio.. urgh.. bio...

in any case i kinda dread sch now.. ok mayb a little only. hehe. sometimes u just don't want to see them they just appear and scare u. literally. omg..stay away from me pretty please...? LOL so girly.. o_O *pukes* hehee..

buzz off...buzzzz...

aparently not

2008-05-26T23:21:00.004+08:00

Nic is now currently admitted in AH and tmr will be his operation. Actually i kinda wonder how it is like cause i never quite dared to ask my pts this so now i have nic to qsn. lol. Will be visiting him sometime soon. Seems like he is enjoying his stay so far with a pt on restraints beside him entertaining him. haha.. literally.. wonder what he means by he cannot imagine me being a nurse. lol..

Man tmr i'll be having my lab pract. crossing my fingers hoping i don't get gastro feeding cum bladder washout. =s the day after lab theory and stats.. the following week will be other nutty modules..

Something weird happen at 11pm on fri night. least expected call came and as a prank call just to drive me crazy. well we chatted till abt 3am. it had all felt like a dream but apparently not. i'll just leave this dangling halfway. lol

some songs i like for now...
-always be my baby (david cook)
-bye bye (mariah carey)
-fall for you (secondhand serenade)
-take a bow (rihanna)
-and mayb 1 or 2 chinese songs which i have yet to find the title. lol

half of me rather not have it to happen. nth good or bad has happen but i still rather not. the process of cognitive thinking..

quick update

2008-05-16T00:46:00.002+08:00

School has gone into the 5th week already and soon coming to an end. The many projects that have yet to be finished or even started and the best part hardly any info can be found using the internet. Well on top of everything i have to do the editing for slides.. hopefully things get better soon.. like real soon. well im just pondering is it really that bad? i cannot imagine if..... luckily not.

The so many test coming up is driving me a little nuts. im like trying to make full use of my every single break to either study or find info for proj if not i will nv have the time. man... sadly everyday is like only a 1hr break for lunch so either i skip or study... this sem is like..

my goal from next week do no more on projects and just focus on the upcoming test? LOL seriously i cant understand a single crap on stats. actually i think 90% of the lect grp probably doesn? haha. oh well enough of studies. im going nuts as it is alr. lol

my gastric hasn been well lately. north canteen food...2nd case! kinda nuts that i went for training on wed even.. haha. since tue till now my stomach feels weird but better..

Ok im suppose to be in sch earlier then suppose to be but its still considered late as compared to those who have lessons at 8? wadever i need to catch my sleep. (:

the weather is kinda weird these few days.. take care of your health ppl! ms ng u better not get dengue again.... -.-"

lets see how everything goes.. (:

shut up

2008-05-01T23:39:00.003+08:00

i nv like the thought of expressing my personal emotions and thoughts.
those who know me well would know.

and so it will be...

insomnia?

2008-04-18T22:06:00.002+08:00

I am extremely freaking tired these few days. I haven been sleeping well which feels as though im having insomnia. You know when you feel extremely tired and feels as though you will reach lala land almost immediately as your head touched the pillow but in actual fact it didn't happen?Hopeful for a smooth ride in lala land but it gets disrupted?

This sux. i get headaches easily, unable to concentrate in lectures and it goes on... hmm could this be due to stress..? no idea i just want to get my sugar dreams back.

sugar dreams..

rights of individual

2008-04-17T22:36:00.003+08:00

School started and we start seeing the familiar faces and the new faces whom i can recogonise from the yr 1 orientation. the week started busy and it feels like just any other school day as i have been busy throughout the whole hols. you know the feeling of school started after enjoying the hols and without it is kinda different. oh well..

Hmm all my modules seem quite alright besides statistics. *blink* As for my lecturers most are quite alright. probably the most dreaded lecturer would be the module pharmocology. lol

Actually i wonder, whats the point of having a committee if they dont work together? it would then defit the purpose of having one. why even bother having a committee if it would be a 1 man show?

Knowing that its only a few ppl who works, takes the initiaive or even knowing that there is a problem within the committee, shouldn't it be someone who is now currently in authority take things into hands and face the problem? when such things do happen, shouldn't it be someone with more authority handle the problem as the rest have no right to say about others.

Everyone has the right, choice and stand to refuse work which is not within their scope. I am not trying to complain that i am the only one who is actually doing most of the stuff. i don't mind helping but there is a limit to everything. commitment cannot be compared as it is a individual interest and choice.further more everyone has each and their own responsibilities and priorities and their own busy personal lives. What would be the point if the person is to feel obliged or forced to do something they don't like or want?

There are people who draws the line so clear of what they don't need to do and maybe even sometimes include what they need to do. when it bounces back at them, they may end up complaining? so what would happen to those who does extra stuff or even most of it. guess they still get the same workload without anyone reaching their hand out to help.

would u still give someone work when u know they are busy or already doing most of the stuff? personally i would help what i can and of cause within my means. shouldn't those are are able to work share the workload? what can i say, everyone has their own perception too..

i would be able to help still only if i'm not that busy when school really starts which will be impossible. Hence i can't possible help that much but i will definitely do what i'm suppose to do as i took up the resposibility as a treasurer.

Sometimes don't just assume things. find out before stating it as though its already facts. not everything may be right or wrong. it could end up misjudging, insulting, misconception and the list just goes on..

Seriously i need to catch my sleep. my headaches are starting to come back today during lessons.

A king leads his troops.

sem 1 2008

2008-04-08T21:36:00.002+08:00

Just saw my timetable for this sem. Seems a little pack but hopefully alright as i have not really looked through properly yet. Night classes on thurs till 8 next day start sch at 10am. not that bad.. oh well.. good thing none of the days my lesson starts at 8am. hehee..

One of my modules hold 14 credits!!! omg nursing practice.. sounds like some wong jk kind of module. hopefully not with a module that has such high credits. the rest of the modules have credits of like 2 to 4 only. oh man.. this really sux.

Ah...~ oh well... welcome, sem 1 2008. lol

hopefully not falling sick..

Worth Remembering

2008-04-07T01:05:00.009+08:00

An extremely enjoyable night. Its been a long time since we last went out like this. I think almost everyone got sick of eating salmon but i think somehow i made them fall in love with the prawn? well, to a certain extend.. (:

Was really surprise that ed and zb bought me the most expensive cake at coffee bean. somehow i think this is how they came to a conclusion of which cake to buy for me. They didn't seem like the kind to do such a thing and i cant quite remember who had suggested this but yes its sweet of them (: Both dp and i were lost for words upon seeing the cake.. haha.. Now im too full to sleep.. lol

Today itself is a present already so need not get me a present yea. Its the thought that counts not the present so skip it.. =p thanks peeps~

The pictures shall do the rest of the talking. (:

I forgot to take a pic of my prawns!!! lol

nic, ed, zb
(somehow nic looks like he's mugging. LOL)

His crap as usual =p
(The wonderful prawn's head in his mouth)

Hopefully no one tells him abt his pic being put up but i thought its actually nice. Camera-shy guy. hehe~

zb was literally mugging. hahaa

(:

Oh Man~ heehehee...

If only something so joyous could happen everyday..

Aiki Outing

2008-04-04T00:08:00.002+08:00

From the supposed outing of cycling at ubin to ice-skating at JE to playing at the arcade, movie and pool. wow what a great outing. oh well so long they enjoyed themselves if they do.. wadever.

Thanks to those who made an effort to set time aside and being able to join us despite the rush or dislike. And of cause thanking for the outing. Well its also nice of those who had the thought and actually remembered the outing though they are unable to make it.

Either irrresponsible, don't know and/or can't be bothered.

Outing down and next would be club crawl following it another orientation for the freshies (another outing.....). Hopefull there are BETTER ppl.

I'm looking forward to sunday now. dp say we will be celebrating my belated bday with my prawns.. yum....LOL. Cheer me up! HAHAA..hopefully i don't have to plan the outing like always. sick of it *hint hint*

(:

2008-03-29T00:18:00.007+08:00

Finally turned 18! ok.. wadever.. hahaa. Now just waiting for my friends to turn 18 which will be months ltr. o_O oh well..

Kai jing got me a mp3 which was a combination of last year's present as she didn't give me one. A ZEN stone plus. Though it has already came out last year and this is something which is hard to find in the shops now and with discount(according to her), I don't really care. Its something which probably cause a hole in her pocket anyway its the thought that counts. I'm happy enough to meet her which is usually during our birthdays if not in nyp( and calls me by hitting my head!). Anyway a present from her is always being accompanied by a card which she never fails to to put winnie the pooh inside. haha. Cute~

Met aunt jas today and she treated me to coffee house. Sweet of her.. Hmm her bday is coming soon too.. (:

Went to sushi tei for dinner. And omg i feel in love with the prawn there. hahaa.. my sis expression when she ate it was something which i have never seen before. haha Might be going back for more prawns hopefully? lol anyway my family and someone special got me a adidas watch. (:

For now i have gotten everything i wanted.

Long time since i last uploaded any pics. anyway here are some.. the rest are in the camera which i have yet to upload into my laptop. Might upload some in the future. (:

Jing and Me

Aunt Jas and Me

The Younger One

This would have turned out nice!

My nonsense. HAHA i made everyone take a photo like this.. lol

It Comes To An End

2008-03-21T00:22:00.002+08:00

My 2nd attachment has come to an end. 2 of my patients whom i know will go home tmr the rest are all new admission besides 15.. wadever.. sheesh im a mean nurse. lol those who had been under my care had at least said thanks and some even missed me. hehe...

2 of them were saying comments about me. their words silently assured me i didn make the wrong choice of coming to nursing. and this reminds me of smth sad. came to know today that izhar gonna quite nursing do NS and go to nafa! gonna miss his company and jokes. and one less guy in the class!!! o.O im like broadcasting it to 0720. lol. the last thing we did tgt or even for the whole attachment was to wear a uroshealth for bed 15 twice. haha..what a way to end..

anyway now left with 2 guys in the class. kinda pathetic. sometimes its good to have guys around as they are usually the jokers.. hehe.. oh well..

im like feeling hungry now. at 10am i ate a bun(brunch), 4pm a waffle(dinner) and in between 6 sweets. i didn have appetite for dinner as i was feeling nausea from the wound dressing done earlier. think the wound had an infection earlier but is healing well now. it was the smell.. wei jie was lucky during the first half of the time he was having the block nose. ironically. later on he smelt it too. haha.. mayb the smell became stronger..hmm.. the whole time i was clutching my tummy while smelling the alcohol rub on my hands.. lol

sleepy..

The 7am Light

A Nice Feeling

2008-03-14T17:45:00.004+08:00

Its a nice feeling.

Patients and family members coming to you telling you thank you for everything from the bottom of their hearts when they are going to be discharge.
Them remembering your name and calling you by it.
Seeing and knowing that they will miss you to a certain extend.
Seeing the disappointment in their face when they will not be able to see you on the last day of their stay in the hospital.

A sense of satisfaction that one has done well.
Patients being able to relate to you.
Allowing yourself to slowly enter their hearts.
Having them to do things willingly rather then needing to try and force them to do so.

They made my day despite the fact i got 'shot down' by my lecturer. Though it should be taken as an encouragement , it kind of 'de-moralise' to a certain extend at that point of time. It adds on to the fact that i already feel incompetent. Those words nearly brought tears to my eyes.

My patients words are of encouragement to me. I can do what other's cant. I merely lack the practice of skills which make me incompetent but essential.

They made my day. (=

Attachment

2008-03-13T17:46:00.002+08:00

2 weeks of my attachment has already passed. My 1st week in the polyclinic was enjoyable.. im even considering to join them after getting a few years of experience in the wards. Not really due to the reason that i get public hols like everyone does or getting normal working hours. Simply because i get to talk more to my patients especially in the treatment as compared to the wards. I hardly see or actually dont even see the staff nurses talking to patients etc due to the load of the paper work and even ending up doing ot which can last till abt a few hrs? So much for the holistic care the lecturers would always say.Well at least i know at the polyclinic im able to do so, which seems more meaningful and the reason why i even ended up in the course despite being so routine. oh well i shall see how things go..

Back in the wards i feel incompetent as compared to the ite students who are also yr 1. . Though the things that we learn and focus are different and they already have 6mths of attachment while i have 6 weeks of it(well including this posting), i cant help but feel that way although i know this isn't the way to compare.

Andy and one of the CI talked to us abt the PRCP, signing up for a bond and also how yr 2 is gonna be a struggle? Hope im able to cramp everything in when im in yr 2 so i wont have to struggle that much during the PRCP in yr 3. Hopefully i can pass if not it will be a few months later before i can be considered a registered nurse.

Gotta search the medications my bed 14 takes for my case study..

drop dead.. im cold..brrr...

BBQ

2008-02-29T22:18:00.002+08:00

Had my class bbq today with a few main events only. I set up the bbq pit myself and it was successful!!! LOL the guys... wei jie playing, izy didn know how to do it and liu lei forget it.. haha. anyway what can i say? my class has 3 guys only. hehe..

Spent the day cycling and roller blading. I was pretty amazed with myself that i was able to blade better than i expected since i have not done so since pri 6? Hmm may be due to the fact that i do ice-skate once in awhile still so i merely applied ice skating into bladding.But i dare not go fast as the tiny accident which had happen while ice skating still stays vividly in my mind. It had left me limping for a few months.. literally months..

Not really sure how i've become so busy this hols. Oh well.. tmr i have to be in sch, yes on a saturday, 8.30 and its early!!! i'll be out again the whole day tmr as well as sunday. the same time as tmr 830at yck but this time to give tuition! haiz.. i don't want to explain any further with this kid. lol. I have not been sleeping well or enough these few days.. Hope i'm up and kicking on monday and for the next 3 weeks... o.O

dead beat..

change

2008-02-28T15:06:00.003+08:00

This whole week i've been kind of busy or rather i have plans every single day. Going out more often equals to spending more money. oh well nvm attachment starts next week so the only the which i will be spending on is food for my meals. (:

Went to IMM to buy the stuff for tmr class bbq. I was like laughing my head off with izhar. Funny guy. Happen to see pg at imm too..Okay wadever.. lol

When we were having lunch all 5 of us receive the same sms. As we were posted to the same hospital and ward, the sms stated we wil be posted to another ward, 63 instead of 57. Oh man, its the cardio ward and yus says the staff there are very strict. All or almost all patients are on strtict IO charts as they are all cardio pts. Omg.. hmm the only comforting thing is the ANs (assistant nurse) are super nice but its the staff nurses which we have to communicate with. o_O Man... i haven looked through a single thing yet.. lol

Now i shall eat some ice-cream with my sis. Later i would start my search on the polyclinic. Hmm then clinical or others?

Chocolate ice-cream..

Crapified

2008-02-28T00:27:00.002+08:00

I've seen this coming.
I expected this to happen.
And now it is already happening..
Or worse....? wadever...
Crap..

Bored

2008-02-22T11:26:00.002+08:00

Lets see... exams are officially over already. (: but studies aint exactly over for me... i have to find out more on the polyclinic which i will be attached to cause we will be tested for it.. sounds crap right..? and i have to revise everything on clinical for both sems if not i'll be dead in the wards. haha i even forgotten the range for a normal bp reading what more the aseptic procedures. i wonder which type of ward i'll be posted to and what kind of staff and patients i'll be seeing for 2 weeks.

im suppose to be at the jurong east swimming complex with my classmate now but decided not to go. oh well doesn't matter.. hope the aiki members exams can faster end then we can go out and chill tgt. lol

im bored...

disappointed

2008-02-21T01:24:00.003+08:00

sometimes i just wonder whats the point.

why bother

why care

why go to that extend

i have allowed too much thoughts to come here too many a times already. it time to close up.

things are getting a little scary

one and only thing im happy today is i got my hakama already. cool~ lol

tired as i may be but i must never allow it to be...

responsibility

2008-02-20T12:13:00.002+08:00

Had wanted to sleep early ytd but something had to crop up. oh well still woke up earlier to revise for the psy paper.12 lectures in all.. (:

anyway what u think of responsibility? how important is it?can it be mixed with priorities and/or emotions? a promise is a promise it should be fulfilled. don't agree to it if u can't make it come true. my fault to let it happen due to a simple word of trust your fault of being irresponsible. so now its my responsibility to clear up the crap by spending money. just because of 2 things trust and responsibility and this isnt a matter of money.

each time this happens the same mistake would be done again like it happened for the first and 2nd time hmm hopefully not a third as it will inflict too much pain in u.if u can take it up hold it tightly, u must also learn to let it go when its time to. since u have moved on why still hold this back.. nothing is ever easy but pick yourself up from where have fallen. hate me so much will cause u misery. im fine and happy (: call me cold-blooded or what ever cuz i know u would.. anyway i think u still owe someone smth since o levels. i will only say so much cuz its not worth my time. but then again no one is perfect. (:

hmm im pretty sure u read my blog even if u dont someone else might. oh yes im sorry to have caused any unhappiness but u brought this upon yourself. its responsibility which my sis wanted to instill in u.. i probably know whats going through ur head, interpret how u want it to be. probably u are just good as a friend. thats all..

everything shall just end here. a close of a chapter in my life.

An End

2008-02-18T18:23:00.003+08:00

OMG now i have to study for wong jk module.. don't feel like studying for this module. 2 weeks ago i studied 2/3 of the whole module but i highly doubt rmb anything. and i'm not even sure how is this paper going to be set.. essay qsn are probably gone case for me? LOL but anyway i haven forgotten the fact that lela and i are competing to see who will do better for this sem alright ganbatte!!! lol..

anyway caught the movie kungfu dunk on sat night with dp. nothing much. jay chou's previous movies were much better. ohh but one of the basketballers were rather good looking.. opps.. lol... anyway spent the night chatting with dp and she updating me with her 'interesting' life...hehe... anyway she starts her attachment today so i wonder how she is surviving. 6 months... hmm.. my exam ends and her attachment starts.. -.-

no idea how but have been talking to joanna alot lately.. like really alot.. lol.. smsing especially even today i met her for lunch after my paper and chatted for awhile... interesting how we have been communicating so much lately. oh well hope she takes care of her body and health...

after tmr paper can slack a little cuz the next paper is on thurs which is psy and all mcq!!! yes!! gonna find out how is tmr paper like....

mayb its time or long ago it should have been?

random

2008-02-15T20:44:00.003+08:00

Once again im bored and tired. yea and im suppose to be studying bio or 1089 now... both somewhat a killer paper with rather high credits. crap... 89 reminds me of wong jk, hope she retires this year since i think she is of age to do so.. haha. her lectures are boring and sometimes somehow unrelated to what she is teaching. imagine half hr on just 1 and first slide when she has 20 plus slides more to go? i always end up skipping her lectures. opps.. probably she is good as a nurse but not a lecturer...

oooo next week wed im gonna get my blue belt and hakama. i forgot the next day i have psychology paper and i told joanna i can go. i dunno how much more blur i can get. telling the members that its time to pay for the fees when its a month too early. gosh..

i feel like sleeping... o.O

listless..

back to books!!!

2008-02-10T16:59:00.000+08:00

Visiting over
Collection of hongbaos somewhat over
Time to get back to my books again
But sheesh i'm still a little in a hols mood.. shoots...

Next weekend i'll still be meeting my relatives again for lunch i think.. hmm probably i will skip but the thought of having lunch alone while my family is having all the luxurious food... o.O this year visiting isnt exactly a joy ride but it also wasn't that bad..

Now im waiting for a bunch of monkeys to come over . (my older sis friends lol)

im not the only one feeling that way so its not totally me. its u who need to change....

Happy New Year!!!

2008-02-06T14:44:00.000+08:00

heheee so happy now... i just found one of my letters which my primary school teacher had sent to me in my primary sch days.. (: i thought i had lost her contact for good since she didnt reply my emails and all.. but anyway think i will send a letter wishing her happy new year.. i had actually left my precious personal letter at my old house at serangoon(we packed in a hurry).. she had given to me before she left..she was actually a trainee teacher in plmgps.. hmm wonder if she still remembers me...

maybe i'll write the letter now.. or should i get a nice new year card..? lol.. or i should just study first.. zzzz -.- oh or should i upload songs into my phone first after leeching from rachel's mac (rachel is my older sis christian name now o.O).. wahaha..

hmm study till bored, upload songs then an all girls dinner of steamboat and bbq. yum~

still wondering if i should invite friends over for cny.. LOL

Happy New Year to all!!! (:

sweet smelling

2008-02-02T22:04:00.000+08:00

Hmm im suppose to be studying now but im super bored and ironically tired too.. no idea why when i didn do much except study? lol

Anyway after dinner my uncle brought my mom, younger sis and me to the florist at thomsom. the flowers there were simply beautiful, the place was filled with the sweet smelling of the various flowers..the smell reminded me of when i was working at ritz carlton. one of the mornings the pantry was filled with flowers the smell of the flowers filled the whole pantry.. hmmm.... anyway we went to the air-conditioned area to get the flowers.. it was damn freaking cold. in the end i couldn feel my nose.. haha.. yes it was that cold. the numbness lasted till i reached home.. lol... actually i did took some pictures but none was nice as my hands were shaking from the coldness... hehe..

haiz.. i still cant connect to the internet using wireless even after sam passed me 2 of his routers.. apparently one of the wires are missing so unable to set up te connection... im back to square one again.. -_-

Just exactly how much...

Internet Down

2008-01-29T21:10:00.000+08:00

Apparently my internet in down or rather our router decided to die on us. sheesh.. the only way to get connected is to connect directly to the modem and no idea why my laptop cant connect and only my sis new mac can.. yes... this mac could have caused the whole internet thing to conk up leaving me without internet for a few days... Ooo hope sam remembers to bring one of his many extra routers tmr hehe.. thanks man.. hahaa

Exams are just round the corner and everyone is busy mugging.. o.O which means this sem is coming to an end and yr 2 will be approaching soon.. sheesh i dont want to graduate from nyp that soon. Not that i like nyp (though yes there are certain things worth remembering) but i dont want to be in the wards that fast. something which i dread..

Pardon my quietness these few days...

His huge ego destroyed his life...

Freaking day

2008-01-24T21:31:00.000+08:00

Went for training ytd and i think i sprained my thumb. Poor joanna, she seems like she had injury all over from ytd training and sheesh, i feel bad for falling then 'dropping' her and for the 2nd time i think i strained her back. o_O our plan couldnt work when sensei came over. lol.. went to newton to eat with sam peter gabe and joanna. ended up reaching home 1 plus and continue to prepare for todays presentation.

2 presentations today. psy presentation seemed almost perfect and neither could clemaus comment much negative points. it ended perfectly with almost everyone feeling sad and some teary and teared, (i think clemaus was teary too. yes! LOL) the way we had planned it as we were dealing with the topic of death and dying. Provided chocolates and sweets for everyone to keep their spirits up (=

As for the other presentation, my project, was a total disappointment. the slides itself was somewhat screwed what more the presentation itself in my opinion (maybe i have high expectations or i do actually) but even sze huey made her comments though its not as bad as what i think... shall express my feelings no further but wtf...

Shit i got a blister again from those stupid pair of heels..

Unknowingly im starting to think of alot of stuff again..

A sudden craving for nuggets.. wonder if i shoud get them... hmmm..

No choice is a Choice

2008-01-17T14:10:00.001+08:00

Responsibilities are burdens in a way
I do not want to be involved
But neither do i have a choice
Then again
No choice is already a choice even if so
It is against my character to shun away
Though i know it is draining me

bumble beeee

2008-01-15T20:59:00.000+08:00

Been super busy the past few weeks and the weeks to come. but sheesh, who isnt.. haha

On saturday i went to hkss for the cca day to see my juniors and how orchestra is 'surviving'. Sat in the 'air-conditioned' hall as the teachers claimed. Waited for my juniors performance to start hoping to hear melodious music which was disappointingly noise. Went back to hear the teacher-in-charge scolding them like hell and she is one teacher that doesn blow to her top or even get angry easily. thinking back how our standard and discipline was, (not that it was very gd) and seeing the state now.. 2 words, no comments. the amount of effort that had been put in by us and the previous seniors to prevent this cca from closing down is going down the drain.. oh well its time to let go anyway.. but still had a great time playing with the flute again especially with my senior and juniors. (=

Had bio pract today which is finally over but i made so many mistakes!!! sharks.. probably a B or C? anway its over already next week is one freaking busy week! weekends will be spent on aikido, 2 presentations one in which im in charge and the other though not officially in charge but... yes u will know how to complete the sentence.. and lastly health assessment which i haven prepared my cards!!

Lela failed her health assessment. GOSH!!! susan failed her and in a way qsn her abilty which wavered lela's opinion if she is suitable to be a nurse. well its true we should know what we are suppose to be doing and looking out for but we were not even taught of it, spoken of or what more focused on.. its not fair for us but then again we are in tertiary level already. aaron, our lecturer had really felt apologetic and would have passed lela but he wasn't the one who accessed her. yes it would be bias but he had been the one who taught us and knows who had been practising. at least he wouldn be asking such qsn though yes i do believe we should know though not taught.

Part of me doesn mind haven susan to test me so i will know my competency but neither do i want to fail hence affecting my gpa. urgh! just do my best...!!!

Life is fragil, treasure everyone around you..
death and dying...

Migraine

2008-01-05T14:51:00.000+08:00

Migraine is believed to be caused by the genes. Something which i just found out.

Been having migraines since young and now its becoming worse or rather more frequent and last for a longer duration. This leads to being unable to study especially if it last the whole day like now. It can last for 4 to 72hrs something which i definitely will not want.

There are many causes of it and these are some of the few:
-anxiety (doubt so)
-stress (probably)
-lack of food or sleep (more likely sleep)
-exposure to light (definitely)

and the list goes on....

I want the throbbing pain to disappear. *poof!!!*

updates

2007-12-23T21:29:00.000+08:00

Been quite some time since i last blogged? haven been in the mood too but anyway here is one now. lol.

Had our 4a bbq already!!! big thanks to everyone who had organise and especially peigen will always organise outing for our class. (= though the malays couldnt come (i miss them!!!) it was nice to meet the long time no see faces and had our laughs together. no idea how else to describe but i miss all of you guys and the days we had together!

Hmm went for the crappy mentor camp. had approximately slept for about 6hrs in all for the whole camp?! sheesh..they just stretched us physically and mentally. anyway i like my mates, we had our fun and really supportive group! i rmb them commenting me being garang~ so much for saying positive? haha.. hmm i was the only one in the whole 89 ppl who got drenched at 3am and everyone thot i went for a shower!!!! sheesh i was freezing... haha.. 1 last crappy thing abt this camp. our cert was spelt 'nayang' rather than 'nanyany' so the lecturers just went to edit and photocopy for all of us... wah...~

This coming sunday is my junior, yi zhan's concert! haha so proud to have him as my junior especially the fact he like some ah beng and all. gosh, he plays his er hu really well but only today i know of when is his concert!!!! all the cheaper tickects are sold already and the cheapest now is 60 buck!!! o.O argh i would definitely go and support him if i have the money.. haha..

Haiz my first week of hols just flew past!!! i haven felt like i have been resting for the first week. sheesh and i still have to do my projects and the worse thing of all is when sch reopens i have health assessment exam!!! have yet to start to prepare my cards.. when i had thought mayb start to revise for the other modules especially bio since practical is coming up in week 14. sheesh.. so much of having a hol. lol AND i haven went for training for the past 2 weeks already!!!! this wed is must go for training. lol.

happy hols to all. haha..

Random

2007-11-30T23:36:00.000+08:00

Ms ng is finally 21. hahaa.. she was so excited yesterday and keep asking me if there are any surprises planned by her friends. i made no comment to it then she didnt want to send me the pic of her bday party. LOL.

My family celebrated her birthday by going to genki sushi! lol.. well she wanted sushi and i was craving for my salmon sushi so we ended up at the The Forum outlet in town. this outlet is bigger den the one at marina square but i prefer the salmon sushi at marina square.. hahaa.. oh well doesn matter, got to eat it and tried some new sushi and a desert. the sushi is nice and my family agrees its nice. (: mayb shall upload the pic some other time.. haa.. Anway happy 21st to my darling sister. *muacks*

Just realise something today. ive been putting on weight over the past few months but its good in a way but bad also?LOL. good in the sense ive been severely underweight since young and have been trying to put on weight till sec sch days. haha. hmm my bmi has nv been in the healthy range till i came poly. and now that i just managed to reached the healthy bmi range, my girlfriends and family are telling me i look fat and should start lose weight? the irony..... i rmb the nurse during the health checkup in pri sch told my mom i should drink more milk.( a somewhat funny incident) probably ive got light bones and still have, comparing i have smaller bone structure den both my sis?! Anyway ive been a pale looking kid since young and still am. hmm i wonder why, comparing with both my sisters that they are healthier than me since babies... sheesh...

Been pondering alot, thinking far, far into the future but realistically of course. All the thoughts of many issues that could leave u feeling lost. hmm in a way its scary to know so much about one's health, diseases and all. becoming more health conscious is good but will i regret entering this profession..? i doubt so but its scary. shall not bother to explain why though i guess u might think wrongly..

hmmm.. its sad to know what ppl treat you for and they admiting it themselves without realising the effect of it. actually i know it all the while without them telling and admitting it to me. But i dunno how to say 'no' which some friends tell me i should be firm and all.. hmm shall stop whining already and shall keep those thoughts to myself and part of it with dp. thanks dp, i know i can depend on u (comforting to know) but still i feel i gotta say sorry.

My best buddy *hugs*

Stupid Me..

2007-11-28T23:51:00.000+08:00

Finally some time to relax or rather most of the stress is over for now.. next week wed pract test!! hmm.. and also projects plus an essay.

Anyway i feel extremely stupid today. on the way to school today i missed the stop to alight at yck and y cause i was busily studying the drug card thinking there was still another stop more to go. what had got me thinking all the way home in the mrt after training was my stupid reply to sensei.

Sensei was teaching some stuff and i was processing it rather slowly of what he had meant of not being able to feel your oponent. and of all times he had to pick me to be his example and my first time. well i literally panicked and i had a bad feeling abt it. whenever things happen, humans always allow their feelings to take the reaction rather than cognitive thinking ( i feel nerdy relating back to what i learnt but what im learning is so related to humans that i simply cant ignore!) which was what exactly happened to me. crap. logically thinking i fully well know the ans but at that state i gave such a stupid ans which i feel so stupid now!!!!! LOL. dumb me! hope this doesn happen often? hahaa

Speaking of aikido, grading is coming already!! 20th jan. gosh its so fast we get the next grading already.. probably will have to get a hakama and start tripping over it? well thats what my seniors always tell us.

A guy said this to me today " u have rather bad eye bags..." repeating this a few times but in a way i understood what he meant. actually alot of ppl are telling me this. but there is nothing i can do abt this or rather i dun have enough time to sleep and especially past few weeks.. He said" of cause u can do smth.. wear makeup! thats what the girls in my class do.. masacara......." i was like o_O. im not ur typical kind of girl who u c in sch that wears makeup. neither do i doll myself up unless there is a need to or i feel like it which is rare. even if i do feel like dressing up it will probably be only on the clothes, smth which my poly friends have nv seen or rather only my family and dai ping (mayb nicholas???)only seen before i think. haa. nothing very fanciful but definitely not what i would normally wear. at least to what my poly friends say from the pic in my hp. this sounds so girly~ LOL

the world doesn revolve around you, you have to move with it.

sleep!!!

2007-11-24T00:06:00.000+08:00

eeepps.. super sleepy but feel like blogging.haha.. Anyway i found suitable clothes to match for my sis sunshine theme already. haha. went shopping on thurs and fri.. bought a dress and necklace to match with it.. i had 3 hrs of slp on wed night hence have been feeling tired since then till now. lol

crappy.. now that bio is done i have another paper again next week wed. everyone had thought we need not rmb the 30 medications till our pract but dam we need to know for the theory.. faint.. wonder if i can even do well, no..even to remember everything in less then a week.. o_O

speaking of this chances of me skipping aiki again next week seems rather high but having receiving a msg, knowing jan will be my next grading (so fast?!?!?!?!) , attendance and everything.. hmm but come to think of it i think last week wed was the first time after grading i didn go for training i think. LOL. anyway shall train only next wed even though i know i'll probably be dead tired.hmm now i have probably come to understand why hardly any health science students dun have cca if not they are not that commited to their cca. bu of cause there are 1 or 2 exceptionals..

my eyes look red now.

i'll probably reach lala land also immediately my head touchs the pillow. hehe~

slacking~

2007-11-19T22:49:00.001+08:00

Its suppose to be afew days later before i blog again but im kinda sick of looking at the bio lect notes already. even now im considering to go for training on wed but partly also because mayb the david sensei (dunno if i got the name correct) might be taking over the class that day. i like training under him though it is more tiring then usual. (:

Anyway i just reformated my conputer and somehow it doesn seem to be quite the same as how it used to be before. wonder what i did or need to do... none of this would had happen if my mom wasnt crazy. she learnt the hard way with me doing the work of reformating the laptop. damn why must gadgets and electronic stuff be so complicated, at least to someone who hates such things.lol

On the way home from training in the train today saw this 6 year old boy who was super cute. haha.. well the train was packed as usual and the kid wanted to sit and was complaining to his mom that he was very tired(but not in a spoilt brat way) ended up sitting on the ground hugging his knees at the feet of his mother. Later he saw a seat and rushed to it and starting viewing the outside. i ended up having a small talk with the mom saying he is very naughty and all but in the eyes i could see it was filled with love. She manage to sit get a seat with beside her son and soon after he feel asleep on the arm of the mother. Kids can be so adorable and cute at times but bringing them up to be upright ppl is difficult. they can a handful at times but they can easily bring joy and smile to the parents or ppl around them.

Hmm..had elective today and and i became the scrap goat. a 'model' for the lecturer to do her makeup on. no idea why she had chosen me out of 44 female students. anyway i look simply weird as the colours used on me didn match and i went to wash them off during the break. haha i cant imagine myself appearing with that face for aiki training. lol. anyway later we had a 1 hr therapy session which made most of the gals cry. o_o it made everyone realise and acknowledge their feelings..

Gotta return back to my book already but sheesh i feel like sleeping. hehee..

Crazy Crappy Nuts.. Wadever u call it.

2007-11-18T19:30:00.000+08:00

Its been a few days since i last blogged and probably awhile before i blog again. Just had dinner so shall rest awhile before i continue with my work. Been super busy and will probably become more busy in the weeks to come. Hope i wont be sacrificing my trainings which i will be this wed.

Now is gonna be the start of week 6

Lets see..
week 6 - thurs bio test and i have no idea if what i have studied has gone into my head..

week 7 - wed clinical test which i haven started to study which i probably might be so dead.

week 8 - if my calculation is correct my clinical pract would fall this week. o.O (i hate the aseptic procedures which i either be confused with or forget to do. )

week 9 - a presentation which my group haven started and have no idea how to do and we so hate the lecturer. haha. And also a 1000 word essay to be handed up which holds abt 70% of the module marks?! faints~

LOL i seem to have smth to complain abt each week but i seriously cant wait for the hols to start. hmm i probably have reminded my classmates what the weeks ahead or gonna be. (if they read my blog)

This sunday is gonna be my sister's 21st birthday party and i haven found smth to wear and having a theme of 'sunshine'.qnyone free on thurs, fri or mayb sat? LOL (preferably a girl? haha) hmm guess i'll be the camera women or in charge of the music (smth like that)

hmm lots of things on my mind now.. sheesh.. damn.. im tired. o_o
Till then....

Broken Promise!!!

2007-11-10T11:52:00.000+08:00

Weee~ gonna have another 4a class outing. hahaa.. seriously hope i'll be free on that day to go for the bbq cuz the last time i couldn make it.. o_o Gosh i so miss my secondary school days. Probably among all my schooling days i like my sec sch days best. In nyp, probably the only thing keeping me happy or happiest is aikido? LOL. Big thanks and many thanks to my class organisers who faithly organise the outings each time the hols come.. jealous...? haha.. Love my darlings.. (= 4a!

Actually my classmatesin nyp are also very nice and rather bonded. we actually celebrate the bday babies each month when there is. Our wonderful mother lela once cooked curry for our class and brought to sch.. sweet of her yea. But probably there is only one person in the whole class which i guess everyone knows i kinda cant stand. And lately this idiotic person is getting on my nerves. Feel like knocking that idiot's head on the wall. LOL~ haha. the violent side of me?
During orientation..

Ms Ng BROKE her promise she made with ME!!! Teacher nv keep promises, her poor students to be. i pity them..haha.. Anyway she said she wanted to dye her hair and she promise me that will dye her her while i reborn my hair.. Happily announced over breakfast today that she will be going to tony & guy to do her hair without even remembering abt e promise till i reminded her..WTH! Some sister she is.. zzzzz. This isnt the first time already.. sheesh.. i kinda expected smth like this would happen but i was rather hopeful this time actually.. hmmm revenge time??? *evil grin* heheee..

lets see if u can catch whats coming up my sleeves... =p

lala land!

2007-11-08T01:02:00.000+08:00

Im dead tired. Now, everyday, accumilated and accumilating since the start of sch. wth am i talking.. sheesh.. yesterday was the first time i slept in class. the lectures for this particular module we are suppose to watch a video to assist us in our lab lesson. But i end up dozing off or rather sleeping. my friend nudge me and i didn even realise! LOL.. skipped the last 2 lect to go home and slp and ended up over sleeping when i was suppose to be at tpy at 7.simply becausei set the alarm wrongly. hehee... now i gotta find time to go to the elp or library to view it on vod. zzzz..

Too tired to think of anything else besides projects and the lab and theory tests coming up. 1 thing i hate aboout my course is the studying. we have to constantly be updated with the latest heath stuff, studying and remembering facts so when we go to the wards we wont be idots and end up getting a scolding. its lifes that i'll be handling which puts the pressure in me. the thought of what is already planned for the next few weeks is killing me..

actually i know where the problem lies. i've been spending quite abit of time in aiki. hmm actually the training is only an hr besides unoff is alright but the time i reach home.phew... its a little too late to do anything already. anything i start would be done halfway. i really dun wish to skip any training but if i cant keep up with my work.. next mon i'll most likely skip training but might still go if im not dead yet. hehee..

went for 2nd training ytd all thanks to gab. really appreciated it. initially stress cuz hui ru and i were not suppose to be in that class in the first place. i keep doing the wrong things. lol. slowly i just went back to my normal focused self when i train usually and got the hang if the moves more easily. (= hmm..its kinda sad that the dojo is gonna be taken away and gab is graduating soon so there goes our wonderful 'sensei' cum entertainer? LOL. i sound mean but dun think otherwise. hee. the words dun seem like it can be understood. oh well, nvm. hahaa..

omg. i so tired... gonna continue doing my proj... though all i want to do now is replenish my sleep...

Weekend..

2007-11-04T23:56:00.001+08:00

Guess i shall do a post now considering it will be days ltr before i'll be free to do a post.

Novena Peranakan Cuisine
Met up with my uncle and one of my aunts at this peranakan restuarant on saturday (malay chinese kind of place). Its the 2nd time i have eaten such a cuisine. The food is really not bad. I cant judge if its really nice cause i dun usually dine at such restuarants. But according to my uncle and aunt who usually eats such food says its not bad.. thumbs up~ lol..

I like the ambience of the place. Most of the tables are covered with green table cloths and flowery design, the very typical malay kind. On the wall hung chinese paintings. They played soft, slow yet up lifting kind of oldies. The moment one steps into the place, the first thing that touches ones nose is the smell of sambal chilli. Gosh.. Its really nice, everything is nice. LOL. Probably is not the typical kind of restuarant always filled with loads of ppl cuz there wasnt alot of ppl there. I guess what really attracts me to that place is just the ambience, quiet, soothing, portrays a peranakan feel, bringing one back in time a little. I dun quite know how to describe.lol.

Dun expect excellent service and all though it is a restuarant as there was only 1 person to serve(at least when i was there). I love the way they serve the rice. Very cute. He puts the rice into a basket and goes round the table serving the rice directly from the basket to our plate. Hehee. Probably this is the first time im experiencing all this so im a little drawn to that place.

Simply lovely... lol

Family gathering
Had a family gathering with my father's side and thank goodness he didn go.. In my mind i was practically mentally revising all the techniques learnt in aiki in case he does appear even if my aunt say he is not invited. I find it hard to trust my aunts. The only person i trust and hold respect for is this oldest uncle who really helped us alot in times of need and probably my cousins. (= Anyway this gathering was to celebrate my sec uncle bday on sunday. Its the first time i seen his son who is like already 28 according to my mom. Mayb not the first but i cant rmb him though my older sis say we seen when we were real young. LOL.

A surprise birthday party which shocked my uncle and brought tears to him and his wife. Seeing my aunty so excited to c her husband reaction was like so cute. Its sweet.

Romantic Princess
Im i abit into this taiwan serial show. Though the progress of the show is abit on the expected side i still like it. A little like the Gong show but the couple in this show the couple like each other, and as always smth happens and put their love in a test. A romantic and sweet show. (= The only thing abt this show i dislike is the mood of the show changes so fast. lol. Mayb i dun watch alot of television so i dun get exposed much as dp and comments this show doesn give her the feel to 'chase' after the next episode who watches so many shows. haha.

My mom says im always watching such lovey dovey kind of show = makes me more gu niang. o_O i dun c how watching this makes me more lady but hmm..mayb dreamy? i dunno. but i do know among my sisters, im more gu niang? but at times my younger sis is more gu niang. hahaa. sounds confusing eh..

Lastly wanna wish one of my dearest seniors which is Yin Lin Happy Birthday!

Dun expect anything is the best.('',)

Random thoughts..

2007-11-01T18:02:00.000+08:00

Been super busy this few days but who's not busy anyway... Piles of assignment that have to be handed up, ICA projects to be done, tests are coming up therefore a need for revision of the modules and especially bio which is driving me nuts. Cant catch a thing what Dr Lam is trying to explain but just today i realise how to understand what he is teaching which is to read up before the lecture..zzzz...

Finally today i get to go home early. Its only thurs and fri i get to come home early (before the moon appears). Anyway came home and took a nap to burn my oil tonight. I realise i haven been able to sleep or rather i feel like haven been sleeping as though my mind is constantly thinking.. Been extremely clumsy, careless and stupid lately. Argh...! Sheesh i feel guitly and bad..

Ytd i have bio lab. Probably all of us walking into the lab hoping we can understand what we are learning better. A 2hr lab lesson ended in 40min !!!!! All of us gave him the stunned look saying "huh?! finish already ah....???" The lect notes usually filled with scribbles was totally empty for most of us... Hope we dun get this part time lecturer for any more lessons. Having lectures without understanding is bad enough plus lab..??? thank goodness my tut lect is good! (=

Sheesh i sound so nerdy but i badly want to do well for my exams for a reason... hmm cant exactly be bothered of how i portray myself... Anyway people have been saying i look so serious and fierce. Heard this my whole life and i know it but i just dun know how to wipe that facial expression away.. lol.

Hmm.. i have still been spending alot cause i haven really been able to save much money. Well at least i haven been drawing money.. Gotta buy books, aiki, bills and all. And now contemplating if i should or a need to buy a drug dictionary which cost 48 bucks.. o_O Its nov already and i still haven gotten and decide a present for my sis (any suggestions? lol) and christmas is coming soon.... faints~

Today suddenly we were reminiscing the times during attachement at NUH. We were laughing our heads off and later i met sushma at yck mrt and we went home together.once again thinking how we laughed on the bus and even at work! hahaaa.. Hope most of our attachements we can be posted together and of the same shift! (=

My younger sis bought this toy for herself but later decided to give it to me as it resembles the nick name she just given to me lately. Hehee.. Thats sweet of her.. Gonna find time to go to shopping malls to find a toy that resembles her nick or something else cute. Hehee.. I feel like a small kid now.. LOL.

Ms Ng dun get jealous.. Wahahaa..=p

piece of... (only my sis n me know what continues XD)

2007-10-28T20:05:00.000+08:00

Hadn't really plan on blogging but since my younger sis insisted (here she is beside me complaining) so here it goes. hahahaa~ My great sis ask me to bake cookie with her and ended up i did everything myself. From start to end. All she did was wait for the cookie to be baked, cooled and EATEN. o_O My mom also stole the cookies while i was still baking when i had wanted to take pic of all the cookies when they were done.. My mom was complaining when could we start dinner as we were still baking.. noisy~ haha...

In the oven.....

Who's stealing my cookie?!
Must be her who stole it...zZzZzzzz

Our dinner was like on the super salty side.. The soup is naturally salty but together with the fish which my aunt brought over today.... *-* Eating the fish alone without rice definitely high~ haha.

At times when my younger sis and i are full already we start to play around with our food, behaving like 2 really young kids, like what we did today.. Kept laughing our heads off till our mom got irritated.. hehee.. And even now as i am blogging we are still laughing.. LOL This reminds me when my whole family goes to any sushi restaurant we definitely laugh and behave the way my sis and i were like today (besides the part of playing with the food) Hahaa.. yes, this includes my mom too! All of us high and laughing crazily but of cause civilised.. =p

Shall continue to 'high' with my sis and cookies... Wahahaa..... XD

Hmm who wants some..? =p

emo~

2007-10-27T19:40:00.000+08:00

400m race 3rd place.

before her 4x4m race..

2nd for 4x4m race

hmm the pic arent really clear as i was using my handphone to take the pictures.. anyway proud that my sis manage to win her medals even with an injury.. (= a tinge of disappointment that we didn't have dinner together to celebrate but doesn't matter. There is still time to celebrate..hehee.

Been rather moody these few days. Probably due to the lack of sleep and getting headaches which last throughout the whole day when it comes. Lots of things weighing down in my mind, giving myself maybe too much pressure, maybe i'm still yearning for something. Something which i probably yearn for constantly and over the past few years... Or maybe i didnt appreciate it, didn't notice or realise.. Like the chinese phrase shen zai fu zhong bu zhi fu..

The post which i blog lately all sound so emo.. Probably shall stop blogging for time being or post less emo stuff. My poor readers... hahaa.

Geeky Side of Me?

2007-10-25T21:05:00.000+08:00

Well i am rather bored and tired after staying home the whole afternoon studying. Been trying to clear up my assignments but a pile left still with an extra headache.. sheesh.. Not knowing what to post about this time i decided to upload 2 pic of the brain..

I don't know how reliable these pic are but it was also shown in bio lecture.. Hmm its rather interesting how a female and male brain thinks eh.. hehee. Or only geeky people like me sees it that way..o_O

Pondering, wondering, contemplating.. (= crazy me.. lol